talking in circles...

...very frustrated, feeling helpless, feeling lost, but I know its a mood, a phase, a hormone swing and I hate knowing that because it makes me seem all that much less in control, and all that much smaller. if its all just science, and i'm just some organism acting it out, whats the point of the feelings, and then why can't I stop? feel so silly and self indulgent to even write this but I don't know how else to shake it out of my system or start to work through it...
thankful for the music and the wise native american who is getting me through this morning at least...